I guess I'll be here a while.  Just because I want to copy all my old entries (for sentimental reasons) and can't find the time to do it.

So I guess here's an update:  I'm the happiest I've ever been.  I read my old entries, and I realize how crazy life was.  I made it that way in a lot of cases, but it helps to be my own person too.  No more being around my mom, who is bipolar, and I feel like I'm breathing again.

I would like to brag.  I'm excelling in school, I love my jobs, I love being married (despite all those people who said it wouldn't work because I was young), I love my home, I love everything I have.  I am so blessed.

I have a family now.  I am whole.  He is the kindest person you'd ever meet.  He makes me laugh when I cry.  He is responsible and goal-oriented.  He takes charge like he should, and he lets me be myself.

I know I've written about a lot of boys here, and it's hard to really believe there's a difference.

But now I know what that difference is.

It's purity.

No one else had it, that purity, that selflessness.  It's called in my religion having the Spirit.  I know he has it, I've known him for almost two years now, and dated him almost as long.  He has the Spirit because he keeps himself clean.  He doesn't put anyone down.  He is a giving person.  He is kind, loving, thoughtful.  No one can top that and never will.

I'm sure I've loved, I always mentioned Ty or Michael Christensen or M. Stroud, or Eric Ossmen.  There may have been love there to an extent.  Sure, I'll say that.  But the difference was the Spirit, either these men didn't have it, and I didn't, or the Spirit didn't endorse it because it was the wrong time.

Anyway, in closure, those boys are off on missions, getting that Spirit, and they'll find a woman with it.  They will be happy, like I am.

I am...

I am.

I have never been so completely, incandescently happy in my life.

Everyday.

And Nick and I,

We make it so.

-Cutebutpsycho, Keira

Hey everyone,

It took some time and work, but I've got my website up.  Please keep in touch and check it out!

http://keirascholz.googlepages.com/home, I think.

Thanks for the years!

-Keira